Premonitions

 Here we are 10 years later the endless toil of the feminization of poverty mounts deep in the thickets of unpaid caregiving work a soup kitchen arises out of the truck delivery and the bicycle delivery the soup kitchen megalomaniac comes after me his criminal record is hidden from authorities he is given a Project Paperclip new identity with which to abuse new victims his victim aggression of the Pomeranian care dog theft has been marginalized as he is put on a pedestal with the protection of Judges anyone who questions his sexual harassment of homeless women could be set up on false charges to humiliate and demean them you say this is implausible this is clatsop County where cartel drug Runners embed in the nonprofit to protect and excuse and hide bad behavior from authorities drugs are nothing you say measure 110 made everything legal sort of some backlash emerges as the meth apocalypse unfolds can I pull myself out of it every activist for homeless purposes I know faces some kind of retaliation some kind of harsh penalty why can I not take it is it Like a Knife the stabs the stuffing in the trunk of dear Mary good Mary murdered in Nashville haunting my childhood sitting the stages for an emergent PTSD as I too became carjacking victim kidnapping victim strangulation victim rape victim and I am supposed to idly sit by while drug dealers put their hand around my throat with the protection of County judges plural and a judicial commission worth not much but can I have faith can I have faith someone has been sent here from the east coast to figure it out someone with training someone who has insight someone who I do not have to reinvent the wheel with the shopping cart princess takes a 10-day stay at the brand new millions of dollars jail and electronic courts smooth the process of transporting and when hopes not for a rough ride in Clatsop the catering is fine the meth dealer has the federal cash pouring into his facility Miss Rachel says oh well he's not required to oh just because it's tax money and the non-profit Circle their wagons protecting their salaries their SUVs their house notes and it said they sold the swag on eBay and Amazon for a little cash on the side but nobody cares especially not me